CHRISTMAS MORNING.....

We went to california for Gregs basketball tournament the day after Christmas. We had so much fun with all of my family being there except for Tami, we missed them . We stayed in a condo in Indio. which wasn't too far out of Palm Springs. We went to Gregs Games which was a lot of fun to see him play since I haven't seen him play in a few yrs. They got second in the Tournament which was pretty cool. THe kids had a lot of fun Swimming, Playing at the Games and Just hanging out with eachother. I had a lot of fun just being with my Family. It's not very often that we're all togther especially for that long. We really enjoyed seeingLaur and Travis we have missed them . we enjoyed going shopping since there isn't much here in St. George. Thanks Mom and Dad and the rest of the fAMILY for a memorable vacation. I love you guys and am so grateful i have you as my family!

Kids having fun at the park where we stayed in Indio, California. They had a lazy River and pools ; the kids swam and had a blast, it was a bit too cold for me though.

jayni and cousin sadie at uncle greggys basketball game in Cali.

Trying to get a cute Christmas picture but she doesn't like to pose for very long. Aw mom... it's too early for pictures!

Dad woke us up at 6!! to open presents, He was more excited then Jayni, It was really cute. We had a lot of fun this year. It was different then any other yr. We stayed home for Christmas which was nice to have it with our little family. We spent christmas eve over at leannes and had dinner and just hung out, opened pajamas and sang christmas songs. it was fun and always is to be with family. I worked Christmas Eve and Christmas Night which was different but worked out.

I got my tree decorating idea from tai pan and it looks a lot cuter in person but I thimk I put it up too early cause i'm already wanting to change it, oh well.

I can't believe how big she's getting, swingin all by herself!?

Grandpa, Grandma and Jayni on Thanksgiving at Tami's house, too bad that's the only picture I took of them cause it's so blurry:(

Look at these cute stockings that my sister in law made us for christmas, Thanks Laurie I love them!

I haven't had as much time as I did when I started blogging so that's why my blog hasn't been updated. I have looked at others and by the time I have somehting to do I have gotten too lost in finding old friends to update my own. I will add something more interesting then this soon. I had my second to last class of the semester. I can't believe I actually started school; and am registered to take another math class and nutrition which i'm excited for. It might take me a little bit to get my associates but i'm not stopping til i get it! I had my last test of the semester on mon. and I got a 98%!!!!! I don't think i have ever gotten that high on any test throughout school. I am excited to continue learning, I have found that I enjoy it: WEIRD! We're just staying really busy getting ready for christmas. I put my tree up a few days before thanksgiving.

That's me if you can't tell!

There's Clayton.

Me and my friend Tasha

We had a lot of fun four wheeling I think it's important to do things with eachother. We won't be able to do this as much with two kids so we'll take advantage of the times we can. Thanks Leanne for watching Jayni. It's so nice to have my sisters watch Jayni she loves her cousins and it especially nice to not be worried about Jayni and she is well taken care of.

Jayni was trying to escape!

They climb in the toy box and play.

Jayni and her best buddy Kyler, they are so funny together.

Jayni still enjoying eating by herself, I finally figured out that it's best to undress her til she's all done.

Well I guess i've been TAGGED......whatever!
Seven interesting facts about me are:
1. I love life today! I am seeing things for the first time, it may sound weird but it truly is the coolest thing to be where i'm at. I love being in Recovery, doing things with other people that are on the same path as i am. I love all the people who are in my life today because they are in in my life for a reason. I learn a lot from other people, I never used to be like that I have always said," I need to experience things on my own." I am learning that i can learn from other people that go before me.
2.I love being a mom it's the greatest gift that god has given me. I realize that she is heavenly fathers child and i am going to do my best to teach her the things that will help her become the wonderful Daughter of god that he has intended her to be. I love to watch children, they can be sterssful at times but when i can calmly sit back and watch them inneract with eachother it's pretty incredible. Kids make it real what life is all about. If we could remember whtat we teach our kids this world would be a lot more peaceful!
3. I love being married it has taught me to be PATIEN, KIND, and TOLERANT. I love being married to someone who is also in Recovery and is learning that this life is a learning process. I love that Clayton is his own person and so different from me. I used to expect him to be a certain way,it has taken a lot of practice to see him in a new light which I am so grateful for because he is an incredible person. I am so grateful that he is such a loving Dad.
4. I love to hang out with my family, we don't get to spend too much time as a unit becuse Clayton is either working or I am in school or working so when we get to spend Good Quality time together it's awesome!
5. my ideal day would look like this, Wake up and read out of my meditation book, go to the gym and have a really hard work out, come home put Jayni down for a nap, put some cleaning music on and clean my house spotless. Get ready, Go get lunch at Olive Garden and have the pasta with Green peppers and chicken(don't remember the name) Go to the park with Jayni then go get a Dr. Pepper!!! and then come home and Have my homework done for class, Fix dinner(maybe) then Clayton and I would go get a movie and Ben and Jerrys Strawberry cheese cake and put Jayni to bed and watch the movie then Go to bed at Ten oclock.
6. wow reading that perfect day puts a smile on my face. That's what my days used to consist of but with everything else added to my life I have learned to be ok if there's a spot on my floor and laundry piled up(not too high). I do the best I can each day and am learning to let things happen and not try to Role play my Days. I am becoming very appreciative of every precious moment cause I swear there's not enough hours in the day:(
7. Last thing is that I want to be a therapist for women who have been through some of the things I have and anything else. I say women right now but that could change that's just where i'm at, I want them to feel empowered and see their heads held high.

Our Day in Rockville.......

We went up to Rocckville(right before zions) for a workshop. It was a lot of fun played football and bball. Ate really good Mexican food. and attended some mtgs. we weren't planning on staying but our friends were going to camp so they talked us into staying and camping for the last time this yr. I'm glad we stayed.(our pants are wet from crossing the river brrrr........)

Sorry, thought it wouldn't be blurry but that's all of us, well except me!

Clayton actually fell in and kyle hurt his wrist trying to help Clayton over. This was the highlight of the wknd.!

We spent about 45min. trying to cross the river. we did finally do it but had to turn around and go back it was getting dark.

Standing around the fire trying to stay warm, i had three jackets on. It was cold!

Boys wiil be Boys; heading out for their night hike.

I just got done with my homework and i'm already sick of school. I remember why I sluffed do much in highschhol; it was hard for me and i didn't want to do the work. I am really glad that i am finally in school but feeling frustrated and don't want to register for next semester. To anyone who went to colleg, How did you keep going? Did you want to Quit? It hurts my head to have to think that hard. I'm just venting but if you have any tips that helped you stay focused I would appreciate it!!

She has this whole Halloween thing down, she had so much fun running from door to door. She walked into a few peoples house as soon as they opened their door especially if they had a dog. They would open the door and put the bowl of candy down for her to reach and she would drop her bucket and grab the bowl of candy. It was so funny.

We went to Cam and Michelle's Trunk or Treat then went over to our friends neighborhood.

Dad and Jayni Trunk or Treating.

So I was getting ready for work and started reflecting on the past few yrs. That's scary for me to do sometimes. I Just got this burning desire to let my immediate and extended family know how much I love them. I too often try to pretend that the past hasn't happened because i can be pretty selfish but for some reason right now i can't help but feel the past is a good thing for me. I want to believe that I haven't affected anybody by the way I was living but I know that's a lie so I want to apologize for the things I have done that may have affected some of you. I was wrong and very SELFISH! I want to thank my brothers and sisters for having so much love for me and for being great examples of how to live. Thank You mom and dad for staying strong and having such a HUGE devotion to God. I know he has carried you through some of those times. Thank You to my Aunts and Uncles for being there for My mom and especially to you Grandma for being my moms friend. I am coming up on ONE YEAR of SOBRIETY so I guess that's why I am doing some reflecting. I am so glad none of truly gave up on me and most importantly that GOD didn't give up on me. I feel like this is the very beginning of my life and it feels good. I still struggle, not as much or not as long. I have tools today that mean so much to me and I know there's a solution to everything. I have to do the work and for once I'm truly doing the work one day at a time. Well that's enough and I apologize for the wrong choices I have made and Thank You ALL, I Love You!!!

Mom and Jayni alwas have so much fun together.

Once she had the candy there was no turning back.

We went to the UCYPAA halloween activity, kids make everything so much more fun!

Jayni's first time trick or treating, she thought it was pretty cool that it was a good thing to get candy!

Jayni and mom, a day at the park.

mealtime is so messy now that she has to eat on her own!